When Christmas cheer turns to Christmas tears

For many of us, Christmas is all too often anything but merry. There is no escaping the stark, dark statistics. A spike in cases of suicide, a dramatic increase in calls to lifeline and a bloody uptick in presentations to emergency services clearly shows that the holidays are, for many of us, anything but happy. As a result of the COVID pandemic our mental health system is already overwhelmed. There is little doubt that the system will be swamped even more this Christmas. Some patients are already having to wait up to five months to see a qualified practitioner. Tragically many will fall through the growing number of holes in the safety net. But it is not all doom and gloom. Forewarned is, as they say, forearmed.

If it’s the season to be jolly, why are so many of us so sad?

If you fail to look ahead and realistically manage your expectations, Christmas cheer can become Christmas tears in a heartbeat. Failing to look ahead is like fanging it down a dark road through thick fog in the vain misplaced hope that you won’t hit anything. If you don’t look at what’s coming “Ho! Ho! Ho!” will swiftly morph into “Oh Em Gee!” You will crash. Slow down and evaluate the emotional terrain you will be travelling through over the next few weeks of this sometimes not-quite-so-festive season. Take time to consider factors relating to your own individual circumstances that may put you at risk. For example: Over the past five decades the percentage of Australians living alone has increased by 300%. There is some evidence that this trend is slowing down, however, the truth is that one in every four of us still lives alone. Loneliness and being socially disconnected is a major contributor to depression. In the same way that the dripping tap becomes louder in the still wee hours of the night, loneliness is amplified when, in stark contrast to your isolation and solitude, you are surrounded by blissful families celebrating Christmas together. Around this time, many of us start to feel that despite her belting out a chorus asserting the contrary over the P.A. at Woolie’s, Mariah Carey doesn’t really want us for Christmas.

It’s silly season. You’d be wise to pump up your spare tyre of support

It’s really not smart to drive around without a spare tyre. Now, imagine this as a metaphorical “spare tyre of emotional support”. An apt metaphor for the support you can call upon from friends and family. Imagine breaking down or getting a metaphorical puncture and having no one to turn to. Hopefully this gives you a sense of just how isolated and vulnerable lonely people sometimes feel. Some of my patients have described feeling absolutely desolate upon being admitted to hospital and having no one to put down as next of kin. Service your support network and make sure your metaphorical spare tyre is pumped up and primed for the bumpy journey from here to January.

The spirit of Christmas isn’t liquor.

Christmas and alcohol are a cocktail of the Molotov variety. Alcohol is an opioid agonist (a substance which initiates a physiological response when combined with a receptor) that temporarily makes you feel elevated. The bad news is that it is also a central nervous system depressant guaranteed to amplify our woes. Furthermore, very few of us can claim to have made our finest decisions after 12 eggnogs and half a bottle of Bundy. Two sheets to the wind and our darker angels start sounding perfectly reasonable as they encourage us to give the boss that long overdue whoops upside the head at the office party or to haul family skeletons out of the closet for public dissection over dessert at Christmas dinner. Perhaps by now it’s starting to sound like Christmas alone isn’t all that bad.

To amplify problems just add alcohol. People smoke, drink and take drugs as a quick fix that delivers immediate relief to problems like anxiety or depression or loneliness. The quick fix actually fixes nothing. Any relief you feel is temporary and the come down to the sober light of day will often leave you feeling even worse. And never more so than at Christmas time.

Christmas is one of the busiest days of the year for paramedics and police.

The disinhibiting effect of alcohol reignites old family feuds and fuels domestic violence. To turn family conflict into a conflagration, just pour alcohol on the yuletide fire. Christmas is just as much of an emotional pressure cooker as weddings and funerals are. Groups of biologically connected yet psychologically dissimilar people come together in an emotionally charged environment to celebrate, which usually involves drinking. All things considered it’s hardly surprising that they end up threatening to thump each other with drumsticks, crown each other with cranberry sauce, bash each other with gravy boats and give each other a solid poke in the Christmas pudding. I am making light of occasions that can, and often do, escalate into conflict and upset. When they do it is often thanks to the incendiary effect of alcohol and it is seldom funny.

Expect too much and you’ll be sorry tra la la la lah…

Christmas is often made difficult because we expect too much of ourselves and of others. The whole kerfuffle often ends up costing way more than it’s worth. Both in terms of stress and hard cold cash. Overpriced tchotchkes that we don’t want or need proliferate. Presents arrive wrapped in obligation tied up in ribbons of unworkable expectation. Christmas has come to resemble the worst Black Friday fracas. And long after Christmas lunch has settled around your waistline and as unwanted as inches and as blubber on your bum, comes the bitter aftertaste of punitive credit card interest, payments missed, and late fees incurred. It is an uncomfortable but nevertheless incontrovertible fact that today’s younger generation is more consumerist than the Baby Boomers ever were. Their catch cry is “I don’t want much I just want more!” Additionally, they believe they are entitled to it and shouldn’t have to work for it. Sadly, well intentioned parents continue to pick up the tab, in more ways than one. Motivated by the desire to give their kids what they wanted themselves back when they were children, parents make inappropriate disproportionate sacrifices. The return on this investment is uniformly very poor indeed. It often seems that the more kids get, the less they appreciate. Remember the toxic stairway. Request becomes expectation. Expectation escalates into imperious demand.

“Food, glorious food
Hot sausage and mustard
While we’re in the mood
Cold jelly and custard. Wow!”

Lionel Bart. Oliver The Musical.

Take overindulgence off the menu. Christmas Day is a day when seemingly none of the usual rules apply. We eat until we are literally and metaphorically stuffed. We then wonder why we don’t feel satisfied and try to wash it all down with another three gin star martinis or a small bucket of mulled wine. Too much of a good thing is a bad thing. I don’t want to be the Grinch or steal the joy from Christmas. I know I might sound cynical, but come January, it is the psychologists and psychiatrists who will be mopping the aftermath and emotional mess left over by Christmas. I have no doubt that police, first responders, lifeline counsellors and GPs working at the coalface of mental health and suffering, feel much the same way.

There’s no present like the time.

It’s not as if you didn’t know Christmas was coming. If you think you might find yourself alone on Christmas Day give yourself time to plan ahead. Remember there is a large family to which we all belong. The family of humankind. Make a resolution to smile and greet people you meet. Wave other drivers into the traffic ahead of you. Let people into the queue. You’ll be amazed how much goodwill flows right back to you.
Take the time to remind yourself that while a little treat here and there is in order, death by buffet is not an option. Be like the French and have smaller portions of a variety of delicious titbits. You don’t have to scarf the whole turkey, hog the ham or drain the entire wine cellar.
Take time to arrange to do something other than eat and drink. Plan to binge on a favourite series and put it aside for viewing on the day.
Reflect for a time on what it really is that gives Christmas the potential to bring us joy and happiness. It’s not the turkey. It’s not the alcohol. It’s not the new iPhone 25. It’s the sense of belonging. The smiles on familiar faces.
The greatest Christmas present of all is free. It is the gift of precious time spent together. Time that we can use to strengthen, revitalise, and renew the relationships that give life meaning. And that includes our relationship with ourselves.

If you feel worthless and insignificant in a cruel, indifferent and uncaring world, try giving. It’s better to give than to receive is a truism not a cliché. If you want to know how much your time, love and energy are worth, try investing a little emotional gold in a random act of kindness. When you give a bit of your gold to someone in need you feel good, and they feel better. Be living evidence that there is yet light in the world.

Make Christmas something that you do not something that happens to you.

Accept that blood is often not thicker than water. You can be blessed or cursed with family but it’s seldom a case of all or nothing. Spend only what you can afford both literally and metaphorically. Invest in your relationships. A lot in the one’s that matter. Less in the ones that don’t. Relationships give our lives meaning. Finally, if all else fails, remember the sage old advice, “If you can’t say something nice, say something incredibly clever and emotionally devastating.” I am kidding of course: If you can’t say something nice don’t say anything at all.

I wish you joy and peace for Christmas and an abundance of mental health and wellbeing in the New Year.

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Movember is the perfect time to talk about the stigma that continues to haunt mental illness among men. What, you may ask, is the connection between men’s mental health, cowboys, and moustaches? The answer is, as it turns out, a lot more than you think.

Big bushy lip-sweaters were as much a part of the old West as mesquite, tumbleweeds, buffalo, longhorn steers, painted ponies and the Colt Single Action Army 45, the archetypal six-gun of the American Frontier aka The Peacemaker, The Equalizer and The Hog Leg. And let’s not forget Judge Colt and his Jury of Six. No self-respecting lawman, cowboy or gunslinger would have been seen dead without a six-gun and a bristling handlebar moustache. Given the proliferation of firearms and the appropriate use of the adjective wild in the descriptor Wild West, they were frequently seen very dead indeed. Six-gun in hand. ‘Taches intact. Famous exponents of the signature Western handlebar muzzy include: Wyatt Earp, Judge Roy Bean, George Armstrong Custer, Pancho Villa, Emiliano Zapata and, buddies and arch mustachio rivals, Wild Bill Hickok and Buffalo Bill Cody. To name but a few. In the golden age of cowboys, along with bandanas, gloves, lariats and twelve-inch Bowie knives, mustachios were considered essential equipment.

Handsome hirsute Pat Garrett sported a particularly fine Western handlebar moustache.

The ability to grow a fine moustache in the heyday of the old West was seen as a badge of manhood. Among impressionable aspiring young cowboys the inability to grow so much as a patchy misplaced eyebrow is known to have triggered severe antisocial behaviour. It may be that a conspicuous lack of facial hair so enraged William H. Bonney, aka Billy the Kid, that he killed no less than eight men. (We don’t know if his victims had moustaches but there is evidence suggesting they may have shared a penchant for conspicuous upperlipholstery.) Billy was laid to rest, nude upper lip and all, by magnificently moustachioed Sheriff Pat Garret.

Poor baby-faced Billy did not. Talk about adding insult to injury.

Having connected cowboys and moustaches, all that remains is to explain their relevance to the stigma that continues to shadow mental illness among men.

Many of us can look back on pretending to be cowboys when we were kids. Cowboys were all kinds of slow walkin’ slow talkin’ six-gun totin’ cool. They were paragons of toughness and silent endurance. Hence the origin of sayings like, “Cowboys don’t cry.” Well they jolly well should and they would live longer if they did.

The face under the brim of the sweat stained Stetson is very often sad. The tall, tough, suntanned drink of water coming through the swing doors of the saloon all dusty chaps, tooled gun belt, pearl handled pistols and jingling spurs is a myth.

The archetypal cowboy is a shocking ambassador for mental health for a host of reasons. In fact, it’s hard to imagine a worse candidate.

Your average cowboy was almost always one of a self-selected group of males attracted to a solitary life for reasons often questionable if not nefarious. In addition to being isolated and disconnected from family and support networks by distance or choice, they probably already had ASD, interpersonal problems, social anxiety and failed relationships, not to mention a natural proclivity for gun violence. Now imagine putting these troubled individuals way out under the lawless stars of the Chisholm Trail or into a bunk house crammed with a bunch of volatile similarly afflicted ne’er-do-wells. What could possibly go wrong? Add guns and liberal amounts of whiskey to this psychological pressure cooker where voicing your pain, or indeed any sign of weakness, carried a stigma so powerful it could actually prove fatal, and stand by for some serious rootin’ tootin’ and shootin’.

While we don’t see a lot of cowboys in our practice we routinely see their modern day analogues. Dr Mark Whittington consults with a steady stream of military people, police and firies suffering from mental illness – often exacerbated by addiction to drugs and alcohol. These people are all fellows of other self-selecting groups whose members, like the proverbial cowboy, are expected to be robust, psychologically resilient and mentally strong. They are expected to be “tough”. Toughness is the price of entry to their fellowship. It defines them. It is what they expect of themselves and of each other. Tragically it is also the driver of the stigma that keeps them silent when they could and should be talking about their problems. We really ought to know better by now but the truth remains; in today’s world cowboys still don’t cry. Which is why, in the worst cases, they still die, literally and often in circumstances where they could have been saved had they only spoken up.

30 years of consulting experience has revealed these metaphorical cowboys are at high risk of burnout, often simply because they don’t know their limits. They keep pushing down on that metaphorical accelerator. They push themselves beyond breaking point. They dig deeper, try harder and ignore the warning signs. They turn a blind eye to that inner metaphorical red light warning them that a breakdown is imminent. The stigma of being perceived as weak keeps them silent. All too often until it is too late.

People in “cowboy” jobs require self-discipline and the ability to control and suppress both their emotional needs and their natural reactions to trauma. As a consequence, these men (and women) tune out to their inner selves, often to the point of becoming emotionally unavailable to their partners. When cowboys get together with other cowboys they often entrench toxic stereotypes often by deriding and laughing at those who were recently among them but who fell over and are now stigmatised as weak. Subconsciously all these individuals share the fear that the same thing could happen to them. And they fear the accompanying stigma even more! These are good, strong men. However, this does not necessarily make them supportive partners or good fathers. These well-meaning but misguided men teach their boys that it is their lot in life to be tough. “Be a man!” and “Man up!” are their toxic catch cries. As long as we men teach our sons that “cowboys don’t cry” and continue to exhort them to “man up”, the stigma will continue to be passed on to poison one generation after the next.

The status quo has to go. We men cannot continue to think that talking about our emotional problems, exposes weakness and makes us vulnerable. Our sons deserve better. They deserve better role models. The strong silent type doesn’t cut it anymore. They never did. The mortal enemy of a more humane and more reasonable approach to men’s mental health is stigma. And the enemy dwells deep within us where it can’t be easily reached by mental health education or the latest “are you ok?” advertising campaign. As men we have a responsibility to our children, loved ones and to each other. We have to shift the paradigm. And the only way to do that is to take ownership of our real weakness; our addiction to keeping up a front that makes us appear strong at all costs. This has to change. Expressing emotions is a weak spot for many of us. And we all need to work towards changing this. We need to learn to tune in rather than out. We need to express not suppress. Because when we don’t we implode. There is nothing virtuous or admirable about suffering in silence. Like cancer, silence kills.

Cowboys still don’t cry. But they should. The sooner metaphorical cowboys learn to cry long and loud the happier they will be. And the longer some of them will live. None of us are bullet proof. Only cowboy tears can once and for all wash away the stigma that continues to stain the subject of mental illness among men. Like ten-gallon hats and six-shooters, the stigma is a fading artefact of a bygone more ignorant era. But it’s not fading fast enough. This Movember let’s consign the stigma to the pages of history where it belongs among the sad, lonely, homicidal moustachioed cowpokes and gunslingers of old.

When Christmas cheer turns to Christmas tears

Cowboys still don’t cry

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